Vesuvius

Written By Britt Wolfe
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I named myself
after something that destroys.

A volcano.
A warning.
A thing people study
only after it has already ruined everything.

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I was eleven
and already certain
this was the truest thing about me.

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That I was not soft.
Not good.
Not something that could exist
without leaving damage behind.

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I believed
there was something inside me
that spread.

Not visible.
Not obvious.

But real.

—

Like rot
beneath the surface of something
that still looked alive.

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I thought
people could feel it
when they were close to me.

That something in them
shifted.

Dimmed.
Soured.
Became worse
just for having known me.

—

So I tried
to be less.

—

Quieter.
Smaller.
Further away.

I spoke carefully
like my words could infect something.

I stayed back
like proximity alone
was enough to cause harm.

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It felt… responsible.

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If I could not be good,
then at least
I could be absent.

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In the stories
I always knew how it ended.

Vesuvius
did what volcanoes do.

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She destroyed.

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And then—
she disappeared.

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It made sense to me.

It felt like mercy.

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Not for her.

For everyone else.

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But there was one thing
I could not leave.

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Samantha.

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Small.
Warm.
Completely unaware
of the kind of person
I believed myself to be.

—

She came to me anyway.

Curled against me
like I was safe.

Like I was soft.
Like I was something
worth choosing.

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And I didn’t understand that.

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I didn’t understand
how something so gentle
could stay
without consequence.

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So I stayed too.

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Not because I believed
I deserved to.

Not because I thought
I would ever be different.

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But because she would miss me.

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And that
was enough.

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I never stopped
being Vesuvius.

Not entirely.

—

There is still a part of me
that waits
for the moment
everything proves it right.

That I am too much.
Too wrong.
Too dangerous
to be held without damage.

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But there is also
this quiet contradiction
I have never been able to resolve:

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I am still here.

—

And so are the people
who stayed.

—

And I don’t know
what to do with that.

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Because if I was truly
what I believed—

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wouldn’t everything
be gone by now?

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Britt Wolfe

Britt Wolfe writes emotionally devastating fiction with the precision of a heart surgeon and the recklessness of someone who definitely shouldn’t be trusted with sharp objects. Her stories explore love, loss, and the complicated mess of being human. If you enjoy books that punch you in the feelings and then politely offer you a Band-Aid, you’re in the right place.

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