I Survived (Because I Had No Other Choice)

Written By Britt Wolfe
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I survived.

Not because I am brave.
Not because I am strong.
Not because I rose
like some myth
from the ashes.

I survived
because there was no other option.

Because morning kept arriving
whether I was ready or not.

Because bills were due.
Because people needed things.
Because the world did not pause
for my unraveling.

I collapsed in private.

In bathrooms with locked doors.
In parked cars.
In the quiet minutes
before I had to answer
one more question
with a steady voice.

I learned how to fold myself
into presentable shapes.

How to stand
while shaking.

How to speak
while something inside me
was splintering.

No one applauds that kind of survival.

There are no medals
for showing up
when your insides are ash.

There is only continuation.

Breath after breath.
Task after task.

I am not unbreakable.

I broke.

Invisible fractures.
Hairline cracks
that only I could feel
when the pressure changed.

I bent.

And at the bent places,
I am weaker.

The metal is thinner there.
The bone remembers.

Strength is not what happened.

Endurance did.

And endurance is not beautiful.

It is repetitive.
It is quiet.
It is choosing to move
when you would rather disappear.

I survived
because I had to.

Because stopping
would have required
a permission
I did not have.

There is no triumph in that.

Just proof
that sometimes
the only heroism available
is staying.

And so I stayed.

Broken in places.
Bent in others.

Still here.

Not because I conquered the storm—

but because I walked
through it
with nowhere else to go.

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I Survived (Because I Had No Other Choice)
I Survived (Because I Had No Other Choice)

This poem rejects the romanticized language often used to describe survival. It speaks to the kind of endurance that happens quietly, without witnesses or applause — the kind that is less about strength and more about necessity. Rather than framing resilience as heroic, it acknowledges the private collapses, the unseen fractures, and the simple fact that sometimes survival is not a choice but an obligation. It is a meditation on persistence when stopping was never an option, and on the complicated truth that surviving does not always mean emerging unscarred.

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The Cowards Never Started
The Cowards Never Started

This poem celebrates the quiet bravery, but monumental courage, of beginning. It shifts the focus away from outcomes and applause, and toward the often-overlooked courage required to start at all. In a world that eagerly critiques attempts but rarely acknowledges the risk of trying, the poem reframes initiation itself as triumph. It is a tribute to those who choose motion over stagnation, vulnerability over preservation, and action over fear — and a reminder that the act of starting is, in many ways, the boldest victory of all.

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It’s Never Just Business
It’s Never Just Business

This poem challenges the common phrase “it’s just business” by examining the invisible emotional investment behind meaningful work. For those who build with intention, dedication is never transactional; it is deeply personal. The poem reflects on the quiet sacrifices, late nights, and inner risk that accompany true craftsmanship, ultimately turning inward to writing as an act of exposure rather than production. It considers creative work not as a commodity, but as a reflection of the self — shaped by conviction, care, and the willingness to place something intimate into the world.

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The Strangest Details
The Strangest Details

This poem explores the peculiar way memory functions in moments of profound shock or heartbreak. Rather than preserving the dramatic centre of a painful event, the mind often clings to seemingly insignificant details — light on dust, the hum of an appliance, the angle of a picture frame. In doing so, it anchors overwhelming emotion to something tangible and survivable. The poem considers this instinct not as randomness, but as a subtle form of endurance: the mind’s way of holding the unbearable by framing it through the smallest, strangest fragments of the moment.

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The “Christians” are At It Again
The “Christians” are At It Again

This poem examines the recurring pattern of political movements cloaking themselves in the language of Christianity while advancing policies rooted in exclusion and control. From the 1920s, when the Ku Klux Klan invoked Protestant righteousness to justify terror and political influence, to contemporary leaders who publicly champion “Christian values” while enacting cruelty, the poem interrogates the gap between proclamation and practice. It is not an indictment of faith itself, but of the ways religion can be leveraged as moral cover for power — and of the damage done when sacred language is used to sanctify harm.

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Horse Thief Detective Association
Horse Thief Detective Association

In the early 1920s, the Ku Klux Klan in Indiana operated not only through intimidation and spectacle, but through organizations with respectable, civic-sounding names such as the Horse Thief Detective Association. These fronts cloaked vigilantism and white supremacist control in the language of law, order, and community protection. This poem draws on that history to examine how systems of power can launder fear through bureaucracy and legitimacy. By placing past and present in close proximity, it asks readers to consider how easily the rhetoric of safety can be used to justify harm—and how often history repeats when we fail to recognize its patterns in real time.

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Everything Is Made Precious
Everything Is Made Precious

This poem wrestles with the paradox of time: its relentless forward motion, its indifference to our readiness, and its inevitability. It confronts the sorrow of impermanence—the way time erodes everything we love—while also recognising that this very impermanence is what makes life luminous. Rather than separating grief from beauty, the poem suggests they are intertwined, that our ache is evidence of awareness, and that time’s cruelty is inseparable from the meaning it gives to our brief, unrepeatable lives.

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It’s Always Women
It’s Always Women

In the 1920s, the Ku Klux Klan held extraordinary political power in Indiana, infiltrating state government, law enforcement, churches, and civic life. Its influence began to collapse in 1925 after Grand Dragon D.C. Stephenson abducted and brutally assaulted a young educator named Madge Oberholtzer. Before her death, Madge left a detailed dying declaration that exposed Stephenson’s violence. His conviction shattered the illusion of Klan invincibility, and when he retaliated by revealing the corruption of elected officials tied to the organization, its grip on Indiana rapidly disintegrated. This poem honours Madge’s courage and the broader truth history reveals again and again: when systems of power turn hostile and self-protective, it is often women who testify, document, organize, and insist on accountability. In moments when history feels as though it is circling back on itself, women continue to stand in the breach.

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I refuse A Small Life
I refuse A Small Life

This poem explores the tension between safety and aliveness. While predictability can offer comfort and protection, it often comes at the cost of depth, growth, and meaningful experience. Rather than romanticizing danger, the poem considers the conscious decision to embrace uncertainty in a life that is fleeting and singular. It reflects on the idea that true richness lies not in preserving oneself from risk, but in choosing to engage fully — even when doing so means vulnerability, change, and the possibility of being undone.

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This is The Season
This is The Season

This poem reflects on the idea that every life unfolds in seasons, some luminous and expansive, others heavy and uncertain. Rather than resisting the darker chapters, it considers the possibility that even these periods hold purpose — that growth often takes root beneath the surface, unseen and uncelebrated. It is a meditation on trust: trusting the timing of one’s life, trusting that presence itself is a gift, and trusting that even in difficulty, there is meaning in having been alive for this particular moment in history.

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The Fire Of Life
The Fire Of Life

This poem reflects on the transformative forces that shape a life beyond intention or control. It explores the idea that growth is not engineered solely by our plans, but forged through surrender to experiences larger than our understanding. Rather than portraying struggle as destruction, it considers the refining power of challenge, loss, love, and change — the “fire” that tempers rather than consumes. At its heart, the poem invites a shift in perspective: to see surrender not as defeat, but as alignment with something vast, ancient, and profoundly creative.

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Fair Game For a Miracle
Fair Game For a Miracle

This poem explores the radical idea that nothing is truly ordinary. Every breath, every second, every unnoticed decision exists at the intersection of countless improbabilities. Rather than defining miracles as rare or spectacular, the poem considers the possibility that transformation is constantly available—that change, both internal and external, is always waiting in the smallest hinge of a moment. In a universe that never repeats itself, every instant becomes charged with potential.

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The Luck Of Being Alive
The Luck Of Being Alive

This poem considers the extraordinary privilege of consciousness in a universe built on impermanence. While everything around us is structured to change, decay, and eventually end, we are uniquely granted the capacity to choose how we move through that reality. It reflects on the unlikely gift of agency—the ability to live openly, love deliberately, and act with intention even in a world that offers no guarantees. In acknowledging life’s fragility, the poem ultimately honours the quiet grace of being alive at all.

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The Choice
The Choice

This poem reflects on the enduring power of choice in a world that often feels beyond our control. It acknowledges collapse, chaos, and cruelty as recurring features of human history, yet centres the quiet authority each person retains within those conditions. Rather than denying darkness, the poem explores the radical possibility of choosing light, softness, and goodness in the midst of it. At its heart, it is a meditation on moral agency—the idea that while we cannot dictate what happens around us, we remain responsible for how we respond.

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Love And Death
Love And Death

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What I Made
What I Made

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Surviving The Unsurvivable
Surviving The Unsurvivable

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I Love Myself More (I’m Sorry)

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Everyone Just Wants To Be Loved…But Maybe That’s Not Enough

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What Grows
What Grows

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I See You, Mara

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The Helpless Thing That Just Wants Love
The Helpless Thing That Just Wants Love

This poem isn’t about a person so much as a pattern — the way unhealed pain can twist itself into pursuit, entitlement, and harm. The Helpless Thing That Just Wants Love was written to explore how longing, when left unattended, can become consuming, and how understanding someone’s suffering does not require sacrificing oneself to it. This poem holds space for compassion without access, empathy without self-erasure, and the difficult truth that some pain must be witnessed from a distance in order for safety to remain intact.

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Quarencia
Quarencia

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Under The Bodhi Tree

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(What Do I Do?) Nothing
(What Do I Do?) Nothing

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The Bandaged Place

This poem was written alongside my reading of Radical Acceptance, and it reflects something deceptively simple and profoundly difficult: the willingness to look at what still hurts without trying to fix it, explain it, or outrun it. The Bandaged Place isn’t about reopening old wounds, but about turning toward them with steadiness and care — allowing pain to exist without judgment or urgency. Writing it was an act of staying present with what I’ve learned to keep covered, and of practising acceptance not as resignation, but as a quiet form of self-loyalty.

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There is Only This
There is Only This

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Mohini

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Yet
Yet

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A Beautiful Violation Of My Solitude

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Britt Wolfe

Britt Wolfe writes emotionally devastating fiction with the precision of a heart surgeon and the recklessness of someone who definitely shouldn’t be trusted with sharp objects. Her stories explore love, loss, and the complicated mess of being human. If you enjoy books that punch you in the feelings and then politely offer you a Band-Aid, you’re in the right place.

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