This Old House: Chapter One

Written By Britt Wolfe
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I was taught
to reach.

That was the first truth.

Push through soil,
through shadow,
through the quiet weight of everything
that came before me.

Stretch upward.
Toward light I had never seen
but was told to trust.

The others whispered it
through root and rain—
a kind of faith
passed down in rings and seasons.

Grow tall enough
and you will be chosen.

It was said
with reverence.

Not fear.

Not warning.

Chosen.

We believed it
the way anything believes
what it is born into.

That there was purpose
in the reaching.
In the years.
In the slow, patient becoming
of something worth taking.

I grew
as I was meant to.

Straight.
Strong.
Unyielding to storm.

I held my ground
when wind tried to teach me
how to bend.

I did not listen.

Because bending
was not the promise.

Becoming was.

The older ones—
the wide-trunked, weather-worn—
they spoke of it
like a kind of ascension.

You will leave this place,
they said.

You will become part of something
greater than root and soil.

A structure.
A shelter.
A purpose that endures.

They never spoke
of the sound.

Not of steel
biting into bark.

Not of the way the forest
goes silent
when one of us is taken.

They did not tell us
that the sky
looks different
when you are falling.

Only that it was right.

Only that it was meant to be.

So I reached.

Through spring
and frost
and the long, unremarkable years
that turn saplings
into something worth noticing.

Birds nested in my arms.
Snow broke itself
against my spine.
Time circled me
again and again
until I was no longer
what I had been.

Until I was ready.

I knew the day
before it came.

There is a stillness
that settles into a forest
when something is about to end.

Even the wind
holds its breath.

They arrived
without reverence.

Without understanding
of what we had believed
about them.

Metal and motion.
Voices that did not lower
in sacred places.

I stood.

As I always had.

As I had been taught.

Strong enough
to be chosen.

The first strike
did not feel like purpose.

It felt like betrayal.

A shock
that split through me
faster than thought.

Again—
and again—
and again—

until the idea of myself
began to fracture
with every blow.

This was not ascension.

This was undoing.

The forest watched.

Silent.
Unmoving.

As if this, too,
was part of the story
they had agreed not to question.

When I fell,
it was not graceful.

It was not holy.

It was loud
and final
and nothing like
what I had been promised.

The sky did not open.

The earth did not welcome me back.

I was taken.

Cut.
Stripped.
Measured
like I had always been meant
for hands that did not know me.

And somewhere
in the breaking,
in the endless reducing
of what I had been—

I understood.

Purpose
is not always truth.

Sometimes
it is just a story
told long enough
that no one remembers
who it was meant to serve.

Still—

I endured.

Because something in me
refused to disappear.

Even as they carved me
into pieces I did not recognize—

I remained.

Watching.

Waiting.

Becoming something
I had not chosen.

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This Old House: Chapter Two
This Old House: Chapter Two

This opening chapter lays the foundation for a story told across This chapter moves from belief into breaking—tracing the brutal transformation from something whole into something used. This Old House: Chapter Two explores the loss of identity that comes not just from being taken, but from being divided, reshaped, and repurposed without regard for what once was. Through the tree’s voice, we feel the disorientation of becoming pieces that still remember being one, and the quiet, unsettling realization that purpose can be imposed rather than chosen. It is here, in the aftermath of that understanding, that something new begins to form—not grief, not yet, but the earliest edge of something harder, something that will endure. 💚

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This Old House: Chapter One
This Old House: Chapter One

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Crater

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Vesuvius
Vesuvius

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Britt Wolfe

Britt Wolfe writes emotionally devastating fiction with the precision of a heart surgeon and the recklessness of someone who definitely shouldn’t be trusted with sharp objects. Her stories explore love, loss, and the complicated mess of being human. If you enjoy books that punch you in the feelings and then politely offer you a Band-Aid, you’re in the right place.

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