30 Days of Radical Honesty Journalling Challenge – Day 27: Who am I When No One Is Looking?

The truth is, I am the same person when no one is looking as I am when all eyes are on me.

It’s something I decided a long time ago—before I even had the language to articulate it. I realized, early, that the only person I will ever be truly tethered to—the only person I cannot outrun, outsmart, or escape—is myself. I am the one constant. The one shadow I cannot shake. And with that truth stitched into the fabric of my being, I made a promise to myself: be someone you can live with. Be someone you’re proud of when the world is silent and there’s no applause to chase.

So I am.

I am kind when no one is watching. I am thoughtful when there is no reward. I am reflective even when there’s no one to impress. I am cautious with my words, tender with my hopes, careful with my regrets. I aim to be the person I wish more people were—and not because it earns me anything, but because it's the only way I know how to live with myself.

Maybe the only difference between the inner and outer versions of me is that my internal voice is freer. It’s louder. Less shy. In the privacy of my own mind, I don’t temper my excitement, or filter my fears, or smooth out the jagged edges of my thoughts. I am wilder inside. Messier. Maybe even more brilliant in ways no one else sees. But the core—the marrow—the heart of me remains unchanged.

There is no mask. There is no costume I put on for the world.

What you see is what you get.
And what I see is what I live with.

I think that’s one of the quiet victories of my life—the quiet integrity of knowing that if the world were to peel away every layer, every curated moment, every polished word, they would still find me. Just me. The same girl who promised herself, all those years ago, that she would never be a stranger to her own soul.

And I haven’t been.

Not once.

Peace, Love, and Inspiration,
~Britt Wolfe💚